In this post I'm gonna tell you all my plans going forward and get a few things off my chest.
Since I know the majority of you won't give a shit about anything other than progress updates, I'll get that out of the way first:
I'm gonna be real with ya, I'm in a weird place with how much Madness content I want to make.
That being said, I doubt I'll ever truly "quit" the community since I'm sure I'd end up making the odd test or collab part years from now despite this, so you could instead call it "Taking a step back".
The projects I'm still planning to finish before it are various parts I'll be making for collabs and my own collab I'm hosting that's going to be "odd" to say the least.
As for Madness Liberation, it stopped being enjoyable to work on a while ago in all honesty.
I'll be finishing the first part and extending it a bit so it could technically be seen as "an ending" but after that I dunno if I'm going to make any more content relating to it.
I know that's not what a bunch of you want to hear but the spark for making it is just gone, at least for the time being.
Mainly due to the fact that I've been working on it for so long and it still looks pretty shit honestly.
OKAY NOW THAT'S THE INTERESTING STUFF OUT OF THE WAY LET'S GET TO THE VENT-ISH BULLSHIT:
Like I said before, I'll probably be taking a step back/out of the community once I've finished those projects.
The main reasons for it are my interests shifting towards other content like art and music.
Music I've especially been wanting to get into for a while.
Generally speaking, conflict in the Madness community also made it a lot harder to enjoy making content for it.
It feels like no matter what you do, people will always try and find some way to shit on it or argue with people for minimal, unimportant reasons.
Frankly, for a very long time before now I was one of those people too.
There's a whole bunch of reasons why, namely outside stress making me a generally angrier person and me sticking with a group of people that aren't the best when it comes to remorse and understanding.
I ended up looking up to somebody there who was a really toxic influence on me over these past few years, to say the least.
Though they weren't the only case of it. I would be lying if I said they were the sole cause of how I acted.
There's a lot of people I talked to over the years who had similar effects on me,
plus I'm definitely to blame for it myself to some extent.
Honestly, I look back at half the shit I said over the years and wince at it.
Even though my heart was always in the right place, I just wonder why I gave so much of a shit about most of the stuff I argued over.
It's also why I'm going to say for the record:
Please don't take anything I've said before 2021 as a proper reflection of who I am. I was a complete dipshit before now.
That's about it, this post was probably longer than it should've been.
I don't want to end this on a downer though so I want to give a quick thank you to everybody who's been a friend recently.
Especially Swffr, who has been great for all the time she's been my best pal.
Until the next post, bros.